I recognize that as a healer me saying, “I am completely healed”, is not truthful or even remotely accurate. I have physical issues and a lot of undiscovered trauma scars. Sure, I am open to facilitating a client in their journey. But with the massive shift in energies, I am opening up to my own healing.
Ya see, it is easy to focus on other people’s needs. That’s what we’ve been conditioned to do: Take care of everyone else and leave yourself to last. But when do you get to the top of the list? I find it takes a catastrophic event to thrust you to center stage. That harsh spotlight can be blinding. Then, the overwhelming feeling of “There is so much to do. I don’t know where to start.”
Take baby steps. Really, that’s the best way. It doesn’t matter where you start, even if it is throwing a piece of paper away, getting out of bed, taking that sip of water. Then you can say, I got that taken care of.
I find the biggest obstacle I face is asking for help. I was taught to “never let them see you sweat.” (Thanks, Dad.) Or as Sister Mary Katherine said at my mom’s funeral as I was struggling to hold it together, “That’s right. Be a strong soldier. Don’t cry.”
Oh. My. Gawd.
When did the switch flip for me? Could it have been cancer? Delving into spirituality? Surrounding myself with friends, chosen family, clients who are asking for support? Yes. All of it yes.
So now I get the massages, take my breaks, laugh with loved ones. I joined a once-a-month energy share. Attended a couple of workshops this week alone that have brought to light so much that is entrenched in my energy. It is already having a profound impact on me and clients.
But this goes so much deeper than that inner child healing, breaking the old patterns, shifting energy and perspective I talk about to my clients. This is me taking those steps into my vulnerability and being more than okay with it.
And then, to facilitate my integration of learning, I am honored to bring that healing forward and share with you. Whether it is in my story telling, the tools and realizations I can apply to a session or “As I heal, you heal. As you heal, I heal.”
I invite you to walk with me.